Senioritis. I remember this. Ah, memories.
So I was going to apply to the Hertz fellowship. Thing is, they wanted four letters of recommendation and they wanted them yesterday. Four letters, by the end of October? I would have had to start planning this months ago. So that isn’t going to happen, at least not for another year. Of course, there was that tiny problem of addressing why software systems is an “application of the physical sciences”. Physical sciences? And you’re fielding this to CS guys? I’m sorry, but physical sciences just didn’t work out for me. Chemistry and I dated for a while, but it ended badly. Thermodynamics still has some of my CDs. Let’s not even talk about analog circuit theory … shameless hussy. Where’s the abstraction? Where’s the “soft” part of software? Unless Ted Stephens is right, the Internet is neither a dump truck nor a series of tubes. Where’s the physical there?
“Alex, why are you blogging at 3 in the morning on a Monday?” I’ll tell you why!
Last week, I wrote a question for an exam. An undergraduate exam. Taken by several people I know, some of whom I’ve known since I started here. Proctoring that test was nerve-wracking, almost like I was anxious by proxy. Anyone who’s been around me long enough knows that I’m a pretty nervous person. When you’re as obsessive as I tend to be you get to thinking that everything bad that happens could have been avoided if only you had done something about it. If people really got nailed by this test, I really feel bad about it, because there’s always a part of my mind that says, “You could have stopped that from happening. Somehow, you should have seen that coming and corrected it before things went bad.” In short, this whole teaching thing is tough on the old psyche.
On a slightly tangential note, CMU’s computer science department website is disappointing. I looked around on the research area pages linked from their website, and just about all of them haven’t been updated in years. Is this the state of CMU systems research?
By the second week of December, I need to complete a project that I should have started a month and a half ago. Screwed? Maybe.